Let go, all you need to do is let go, you could move on and feel better if you let go....blah blah blah. Sorry but I'm tired of hearing this statement when it comes to grief. I get the point, I need to let go of the past to move into the future. The thing is, I have no fucking idea how to, that's the issue. Telling me to let go is not helping, perhaps offering some suggestions on how to let go would be more helpful.
I'm guessing I'm not the only one who has be uttered this statement time and time again, am I right? Are you also tired of hearing it? It just doesn't serve a purpose, who in their right mind would want to hold onto the painful memories of the past? Not me, I sure as hell don't but I don't know how to let go. Where does this letting go come from?
How do you emotionally, mentally and physically let go of something or someone? I've tried to let go of so many things but some of them seem to be stage 5 clingers. They just want to reside in my mind and body and provide endless amounts of stress balls. I'm done though. I'm done with those stress balls, I'm done with stage 5 clingers, I'm just done. I keep reverting back to the shamanic practitioner said to me about self love. If I fill my self with love, there will be no room for hate, so I just have to practice self love right?
Again, I'm stuck. I'm just learning about self love and all that it entitles but I am actively participating in it, thats a step in the right direction. Another step in the right direction is letting go. Wait what? Yeah, letting go. This week I pulled out everything I have in storage and it was A LOT!!!!! I have 7 years of Bee stored in various placed through out my house, as well as some seasonal and some "maybe one day" decor. My house is a disaster, it causes a lot of anxiety but it's time. It's time to let go of what no longer serves me.
I apparently have garage bags full of stuff that no longer serves me and it feels good. Not only have I been able to get rid of stuff I don't see myself using in the future, but I stumbled upon some documents in my possession that hold such a strong, emotional power, I couldn't ignore them anymore. These documents at one point made me feel validated. The proved my point, when I felt wronged, they were proof that I was in fact justified in what I said and felt. These documents hold such a power over me that I decided it was time. I think I held onto them to prove myself but that space no longer serves me a purpose. I do not need to prove or explain anything to anyone anymore (not that I did in the first place but I sure felt like I had to). It was time to let them go.
The shamanic practitioner talked to me about burning the things that no longer serve us. She did say it was good to do so during a full moon, a time in which we experience new beginnings. But, because I am tired and have no energy and a bazillion things to do, I picked a day I didn't have Bee with me to perform my own little letting go ceremony.
I wanted to be alone and let the emotions comes as they needed too. At first my plan was to read them as I burned them but then I felt that it would only upset me more to read the things I was to be burning. I decided to open my folder and release them into the fire sheet by sheet. These documents that once held such power over me are gone from existence and with it I hope the cord has been severed.
I felt scared at first, a regret that I burned what I have held onto for so long but I'm hoping in time, I will feel free. I physically let go and now I need to emotionally and mentally let the rest go too. There were a lot of tears and a sense of freedom. I felt a sense of justice for myself and the ability to see beyond the past.
The last few weeks I've had a major shift and I'm only looking forward. I have so many plans that I am making, steps and actions I am taking and a future a head of me that I can smile about and look forward to. Maybe after all these years of people telling me to let go, I'm finally finding my way. I'm blazing through life, one fire burning ceremony at a time.
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