What a crazy time we are living in right now. Did you know that this moment we are in will be in history books world wide at some point. How insane is that? How are you holding up? How am I holding up? Honestly, this to me is just another day. It's just another day because this is my normal. The fear, the panic, the anxiety and though I've become really good at coping with that, it feels so natural to me. It's so natural that I haven't even bought toilet paper in weeks (mostly because now I can't) but while everyone else was stocking up on toilet paper, I stocked up on lentils and bananas. I didn't actually stock up, I just bought what I normally buy though I did opt to do click and collect to keep myself at a safer distance.
Bee and I live with my parents and they are older, I am also immuno-compromised and have asthma so we are all a bit more at risk. Bee and I were both sick and told to self isolate. I am blessed to live in a house with a backyard and across from a cemetery so we've still been able to get out on the nice days but not come into contact or be near anyone or anything that would put someone else at risk. But it's normal. It's my normal. I have social anxiety, I like to live a quiet but meaningful life. Being with family and doing things together is what I do. It's what we do. We aren't anti-social but we fill time with people we love and doing things we love. There is also this feeling I have deep down that it will be okay. Ever since I self-isolated and focused on me last November through February, I have come into a better space. I have hope, I hold onto that hope and feeling that it will be okay. I worked my ass off to get here, I'll be damned if I'm going to let it fall now. But then I think, I've been through so much shit the last 10 years, just horrible, traumatic shit. I'm in a much better space now and have learned so much. Maybe a part of my purpose is to help everyone through. To continue to spread the love, light and laughter. If my lungs and I survive what the Universe is throwing at us, I'll be there on the other side to help everyone get back up and find their new normal. To find more meaning, to find love, to find value and different perspectives. It's what I'm knowledgeable in. I have 10 years of experience on how to weather the bad storms, the downs, the shit storms, whatever life throws your way. I've got you. I was so ready to take on the world, 2020 was going to be my year, and it still will be. Not in the same way that I thought but I do believe what I need in my life, what I have put out to manifest will make its way to me, maybe just not the way I thought, again, totally normal for me. So what advice do I have for you right now?
I'll leave it at that for now. Basically, attend to your soul and those of the souls around you, spread love, laughter and light. Breathe, reach out, we will all get through this together and come out stronger. Take it from someone who has been knocked down by life countless times over the last decade, you don't have to look for the positives if you don't want to, it is perfectly normal to feel a sense of loss for so much, a lot has been taken away. It's okay to feel sad and depressed and hopeless, those are all NORMAL reactions to what is going on. I've been there. I've been there more than once. I'm on the other side now and want to let you know, we will come out stronger and if you can't feel that right now, it's okay. I'm here to hold it for all of us. I will be there to reach out my hand to you when the time comes. DO what you need to do in order to cope and survive. With love, you will get back to a new normal. We as a world will find a new normal together and I'll be there at the front leading the line with love and laughter. Keep healthy and safe and if you need someone to reach out to, contact info page is just above!
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9/30/2020 03:04:26 am
This is by far the hardest thing I ever have to go through. Quarantine has been tough on me because I do not do well on my own. I prefer to hang out with my friends and my boyfriend because they are the ones who make me feel safe. Being in isolation is slowly taking a toll on me because as each day passes, I feel like my mental health is becoming more and more damaged. I know that no one wished for this, but I really do hope and pray that this will all be over soon, so that we can go back to living our normal lives again.
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